Written on 2:15 PM by nitesh
The greeks didn't write obituaries they only asked after man died "Did he have passion" ?. I found this very interesting quote as jaine's gtalk message.
Yes it is in me but,
For the past 3 months my life has become little boring fun has gone away, billi prep has taken its toll, most of time is gone in it, I am giving my best efforts but still sunday mocks are taking me down, 3 weeks back i was highly depressed but some how I pulled my self up and decided that i will not care about the result give me full effort try to remove the mistakes which i do and rest is upto bhagwan to take care of me.
I have become god fearing in the past 6 months, probably as the old saying goes u remember the god when u need something or there is a problem, I am also the same type of human being.
I am not enjoying my office life, the place has now changed a lot since my manager left, team environment is not the same. The zeal with which we worked is gone now I am working because i have to, no other reason.
Infact this is happening in thw whole company friend circle. Air is moving in the wrong direction. This environment is very dangerous because i don't/can't live anymore in this sector, this has further build up the pressure on me for the coming billi season, I have to clear but this is not only about 'I have to clear' but its about 'I want it dearly'.
Toastmasters has become somewhat irregular i wanted to give speech but couldn't because i don't have time or may be tension. A prepared speech is lying with me, will try to give it after the D day and i m sure it will be my best, first time i will try to motivate
My mind has not relaxed for the past 3 months because in a certain corner of the mind there is always billi going.
Past 2-3 days are going good, i am feeling somewhat confident that i will perform good, to hell with the sunday mock scores.
This quote has inspired me.
"It ain't about how hard you hit, it's about how hard you can get hit and keep movin' forward…how much you can take and keep movin' forward. If you know what your worth go out and get what your worth, but you gotta' be willin' to take the hit."
-- Rocky Balboa (Sylvester Stallone in Rocky)
From playing football in the evening has now shifted to playing volley because of football got punctured and now even the volleyball is nearing its last days. Playing time is always fun. Played TT in the past 2-3 days and I am able to beat taru bond now and together we rape the rest in doubles :) .
Read a few books in the past month mostly marketing ones 22 immutable laws of marketing, origin of brands and pele autobiography awesome book, nothing in the past 15 days. I will go for marketing stream hopefully, i enjoy it. Tehelka(it rocks) and BW are always a good time pass. Read the gujarat riots whole issue yesterday, it shivered me.
I play EA cricket only now on my laptop, yearning to play cricket for a long time but no company. Dravid has been kicked sachin will be next in a year or so because we indians don't respect our stars, we have short memories. Desi wrote an awesome post as usual.
But still there is only one thing always going on in my life billi sleep, drink , eat everything it is.
God help me come out successfully through this important phase of my life. I want to enjoy my life, lot of things in the pipeline to learn pool, horse riding , blogging regularly, movies , toastmasters 10 project complete, photography (hopefully by mid dec will have a awesome camera) , goa again, vaishno devi, the list is endless.
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Written on 3:12 PM by nitesh
" Expect sweet surprise "
It was written in my daily forecast in TOI under my sun sign LEO.
I was happy in the morning as I had completed my morning tasks (not office related). Came to office happily met my colleague who came back from US after 2.5 months had some chocolates though not much I liked the choco biscuits which he had brought.
Sweet surprise which I though could be related to my yearly appraisal which is due since 31st July. So i though I may get it today. But came the mail from the respectable HR department stating that letters has been sent to your managers and the distribution will start from 17th september and the process will be over by 28th September.
Only one word came in my mind after reading that mail "Bullshit"
I read the mail again and understood the whole strategy .. the process will never start on 17th so expect the revised letter on 28th Sept which is Friday , hence the letter will go the Finance/HR after my sign latest by Monday i.e 1 october so my salary will not come in october but in November may be 1st nov if every thing goes all right from now.
Okay no problem with this mail it happens but when you keep on promising again and again that you will get your letter ( as it is commonly called in IT world) by 31st August it hurts. The HR gal calls a meeting telling you the whole of the procedure with strict deadlines with fixed dates 25th july 28 the july etc, we all feel assured that this will go correct with us.
This is frustrating and because there is no other place where I can vent my anger so I am writing to calm down myself.
Companies talk about meeting the deadlines infact beating the deadlines in delivering the required to the customers but when it come to their employees there is no such concept ... delay will not do any harm .... this is their feeling I think. I don't with this vision/values can the company succeed.
HR guys should do a survey of how the efficiency of the employees falls when he is not given his due on promised date, when a engineer works hard to meet the deadline why can't you work hard to meet the deadline on the promised.
Had there been a month delay from our side we would have been screwed.
I am getting frustrated and don't want to work, probably the dull phase which creeps my mind once in 30-40 days has come back. It is this phase where you are tensed there is huge emotional turmoil going on in the brain/heart and you feel like shouting at the top of your voice at the top of a building just like irffan khan did in the movie metro. There is huge vaccum like thing i am feeling. Other reason can be no pay no work if it can be no work no pay why can't that also exist. But that's no that big reason this is trivial matter but though frustration is still there.
I need a break to charge myself for one of the biggest battle coming on which a lot of my future depends.
Amin
Written on 1:30 PM by nitesh
DK tagged me to write 8 random things about myself about a month ago, here are those:
1. I tend to make an impression about a person very early. The impression can be very good or very bad, it may vary from person to person. This mental picture is made by my own self experience and 10-15% by listening about the person from others. But till now this habit has gone wrong only a few times so to me this is good.
2. A lot of time I feel helpless or in killer mode as I can't do anything about it, a few days back I was in mood to kill the karats. I hate 99.9% of the politicians from Manmohan Singh to Nehru, for obvious reasons. I feel present politicians are part of the problem they are not solutions. I want to be in politics some where down the line probably when I am past 35 years of age.
3. I am blunt though in the past year I have tried to controlled this habit, learning to be diplomatic, diplomatic may not be the write word so to be less harsh. I hate flatters . One can never expect sugar coated words from me. Probably If there is a girl in my life in future she can expect :)
4. Sometimes I do things at the whim of a moment, I don't know this is good or bad
5. I am very ambitious, though there are ups and downs in the life but thank to almighty those failure haven't deterred me from dreaming and trying to solemnize those dreams into reality. I feel I have to do something big which I haven't done till now.
6. I love sports, cricket has taken the back burner for some time now, i can watch anything from badminton, carrom on DD sports to football, F1, NBA, NHL etc . I don't like golf and American football probably because i don't understand the rules.
7. I love Friday parties :) TGIF 2-3 drinks by each and then the whole party erupts. Blames .. Intellectual talks , brainstorming, shouting , pouring out frustrations these all happen in friday nights. We all in the IT world enjoy these because this is the time to relax after 5 hectic days. A lot of times I feel like getting out totally and I do and only drinkers can understand the state of mind when you are in semi unconscious state ....... you enjoy you are free from the world.
p.s the above point doesn't mean that I am a habitual drinker i drink occasionally :)
8. I am emotional person, nice movies can make me cry. I love my friends and family a lot, I value them a lot in my life. I have started valuing them a lot since I left the age of anger , emotional bursts i.e teens. You feel the value of the friends and relatives when you are not with them.
I am the last one to reply to the tag so no one left to pass
Steve
Naresh
Desi
Prasoon I am not sure
all have written about it
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Written on 11:56 AM by nitesh
सूअर के बच्चो कब है होली
शीशे को शीशे काटता है
लोहे को लोहा काटता है
तुझे पागल कुत्ता काटेगा
सही बात सही वक़्त पर की जाए तो उसका मज़ा ही कुछ और है , और मैं सही वक़्त का इंतज़ार करता हूँ
जों मर्द होता है , उसे दर्द नही होता
Thanks to google indic , we see a lot of bollywood dialogues being used as custom messages in gtalk. The above four are those of mine.
It all started when I saw karan's message and prasoon was changing his messages in minutes coming up with new dialogues , this exited me and I send him खामोश बदतमीज़ and asked him सूअर के बच्चो कब है होली, this went on for 15-20 minutes with prasoon sending me चुप बे चपदगंजू finally and then the lord of bollwood gossip desi came up with masaledaar dialogues
starting from यह शादी नही हो सकती.
Thankyou google indic from now on i will try to never use english messages :)
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Written on 11:47 AM by nitesh
This is the song which is running on my laptop since dk forwarded it to me last friday and i am scratching my brains to understand this song. But still i am not able to understand it fully. Other song is Kabeera by same band Agnee .
I am back to good old days of listening to Indian Ocean, man ye bawra etc :)
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