Billi Life


Written on 2:15 PM by nitesh

The greeks didn't write obituaries they only asked after man died "Did he have passion" ?. I found this very interesting quote as jaine's gtalk message.

Yes it is in me but,

For the past 3 months my life has become little boring fun has gone away, billi prep has taken its toll, most of time is gone in it, I am giving my best efforts but still sunday mocks are taking me down, 3 weeks back i was highly depressed but some how I pulled my self up and decided that i will not care about the result give me full effort try to remove the mistakes which i do and rest is upto bhagwan to take care of me.

I have become god fearing in the past 6 months, probably as the old saying goes u remember the god when u need something or there is a problem, I am also the same type of human being.

I am not enjoying my office life, the place has now changed a lot since my manager left, team environment is not the same. The zeal with which we worked is gone now I am working because i have to, no other reason.
Infact this is happening in thw whole company friend circle. Air is moving in the wrong direction. This environment is very dangerous because i don't/can't live anymore in this sector, this has further build up the pressure on me for the coming billi season, I have to clear but this is not only about 'I have to clear' but its about 'I want it dearly'.

Toastmasters has become somewhat irregular i wanted to give speech but couldn't because i don't have time or may be tension. A prepared speech is lying with me, will try to give it after the D day and i m sure it will be my best, first time i will try to motivate

My mind has not relaxed for the past 3 months because in a certain corner of the mind there is always billi going.
Past 2-3 days are going good, i am feeling somewhat confident that i will perform good, to hell with the sunday mock scores.

This quote has inspired me.
"It ain't about how hard you hit, it's about how hard you can get hit and keep movin' forward…how much you can take and keep movin' forward. If you know what your worth go out and get what your worth, but you gotta' be willin' to take the hit."
-- Rocky Balboa (Sylvester Stallone in Rocky)

From playing football in the evening has now shifted to playing volley because of football got punctured and now even the volleyball is nearing its last days. Playing time is always fun. Played TT in the past 2-3 days and I am able to beat taru bond now and together we rape the rest in doubles :) .

Read a few books in the past month mostly marketing ones 22 immutable laws of marketing, origin of brands and pele autobiography awesome book, nothing in the past 15 days. I will go for marketing stream hopefully, i enjoy it. Tehelka(it rocks) and BW are always a good time pass. Read the gujarat riots whole issue yesterday, it shivered me.

I play EA cricket only now on my laptop, yearning to play cricket for a long time but no company. Dravid has been kicked sachin will be next in a year or so because we indians don't respect our stars, we have short memories. Desi wrote an awesome post as usual.

But still there is only one thing always going on in my life billi sleep, drink , eat everything it is.

God help me come out successfully through this important phase of my life. I want to enjoy my life, lot of things in the pipeline to learn pool, horse riding , blogging regularly, movies , toastmasters 10 project complete, photography (hopefully by mid dec will have a awesome camera) , goa again, vaishno devi, the list is endless.

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  1. Anonymous |

    Cheer up man.
    "If my mind can conceive it and my heart can believe it, I know I can achieve it". - MK Gandhi.

    Most of the work for you is done my defining what you want. Rest work with that aim in mind, everything will be alright.

    - Wari

  2. Ankur |

    'twas funny to read this...the agony of a CAT aspirant! or should i say misery? :)


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